gar

this is me trying to figure out how you can go from being pretty damn good friends with someone...to barely speaking to them...ever.

i know people get busy, and shit happens....but when you go from having long conversations with someone, and getting along really well...to barely getting them to say two words to you...it sorta sucks. i wonder if it's something i did...or said...and i can't really figure out what. i go home over break one time, and we hang out all the time, next time i come home....things are completely turned around, and then the time i come home after that...even worse.

like i said i know people become busy, but if you are friends with someone i would think you'd make an effort to talk to them once in a while. ok so you say "well maybe you weren't really that good of friends in the first place"...but i don't get how that would be the case. talked all the time, hung out when we could, joked a lot, it was a good time, and then it just stopped. i didn't do anything different, didn't change the way i acted or things i said. idk. gah.

then randomly one day you actually have a decent conversation with this person...like you used to...and it was great, it was nice to talk like that again. but besides the fact that you never talk on the phone anymore, they are hardly ever online....and when they are, they always seem to be "busy". ...you can't exactly help but feel like you are being ignored, or avoided or whatever. they always told me how they were such a straight forward person, said things like they were, didn't "beat around the bush" or however you want to phrase it, but now they are just being so weird and not straight forward at all.

UUUUUUUUUUUGH

wtf

as sara would say....it's really "tweaking" me.

i don't think i could actualy say "tweaking" in a conversation and take myself seriously....not even when sara says it...i giggle every time she does. lol...but it's ok cuz i love her.

anyway......gar.....that's what i have to say about that.

any advice....without nameing names...for those people who know who i'm talking about.


blah.....time for bed
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